Be Heard

What matters?

2009-10-02T19:28:00.015-04:00

All your DV tapes, and your cameras
the bed that you slept in, and others
every single thing you left behind,
tell me who are you competing with this time?
what is it that really matters?

All your hard drives, your emails, and letters
all the things you thought, you bought, or gave us
where are you now and what is the time?
how does one take care, of all the things, you left behind
is it based on what we do over here with our lives?
hows it going over there, where, there is no time.

All the words you wrote
and the ones that you spoke
all the things you ate
or the hearts that you broke,
tell me who are you competing with
in this illusion of time?
everything you had is left behind...
no control, except what you take with your soul
So in the light of recent developments
what does really matter on this earth and in the heavens?

All your songs, all your melodies
all your dreams and all your qualities
the possibilities, all gone sublime
your smiles, your fear, your way of getting on the good side of people you revere
your aims and aspirations
and all the other things that you had
or wanted to be,
now can you see...
me?

all gone
that's what live on
when all is gone,
that is what that lives on

but hang on
all cant be gone
there must be something more that's living on
hang on
there must be something more that lives on?

your soul is living on
your soul is living on

what do you say to Him
when you stand over there?
how do you defend
or over come your fears,
how do we speak when once we're dead?
gone are all the good times you ever had?

but don't worry
you had your share
now its time to stare
pass over there.

enjoy the Sunday
the sunset was made for you
just stare away,
I stare with you.

another day

2009-02-23T20:43:00.009-05:00

Now that some time has passed
when everything is telling you that nothing will last
Tell me how do you do, don't you feel like you use to
Isn't time that medicine to heal all your wounds
She wants to know how you feel?

Today
feels like It'll fly away
Hey
come back
another day.
Today
feels like you'll fly away
but Hey
come back
another day.

Its been many months since you left us
I took the train walked a lot flew the planes and rode the bus
Just like how you wanted it to be
Now is there anything else you'd like to show me?

Today
feels like It'll fly away
Hey
come back
another day
Today
feels like you'll fly away
Hey
come back
some other day.

Where are all those people
at the mosque or the church or the temple
Where are all those people
at the mosque or the synagogue or the steeple?

Now that some time has passed
when everything is telling you that nothing will last
Tell me how do you do, don't you feel like you use to
Isn't time that medicine to heal all your wounds
tell me just how you feel?

Today
feels like It'll fly away
Hey
come back
another day.
Today
feels like you'll fly away
but Hey
come back
some other day.

brother

2008-12-22T02:27:00.005-05:00

If I could give you
any
words of inspiration
that would be, an
honer for me

If I could bring you
in a comforting situation
that would mean,
a life of eternity

But hey Mandi
Are you missing him too?
The truth is that it can be
true!
But hey there Mandi
you don't have to be blue
God made you stronger,
there's your brother in you.

If I could
swim through
my own desperation
that would mean, the
end of my dream

but If I could
remind you
of his sense of humor
that would be, an
honer for me

And hey Mandi
Are you missing him too?
I tell you that it can be
So true!
But hey there Mandi
you don't have to be blue
God made you tougher,
there's your brother in you.

Hey there Mandi
you'll see it through?
I tell you that it can be
true!
hey there Mandy
he's sending prayers for you
and he told me that
he loves you, too,
And hey Mandi
you don't have to be blue
God made you worthy,
your brothers in you

yes your brothers in you
yes your brothers in you

go whisper to your mother
her son will live forever
and in you, in me, in him, in them
and all those that he met
along the way

in the meantime
you don't have to be blue
your brothers in you.

make the best of what you have

2008-12-18T20:52:00.003-05:00

Here comes the morning
look at that sun rise
for some its leaving
for some its coming home

here comes the sunset
lets watch it for a while
look at all these colors
fading to black

you better
make the best of what you have
don't know how much time
you're left with
you better
make the best of what you got
you don't know how long
you're left with?

you're born and you grow
you live and then you die
the rest is the passage
the journey of your life

but should've stopped you there
maybe
but you wouldn't have listened
you're a free soul
but should've called out your name,
you would've turned around

you wont believe what you'll see
when the spirits smile at me
saying welcome to the other side, of these dimensions
while you're alive
what are you waiting for

you better
make the best of what you have
don't know how much time
you're left with
you better
make the best of what you got
you don't know how long
you're left with?

And today
your last day on earth
your first day on earth
does it feel like it ?

you better
make the best of what you got
God knows how magical it'll be
what you'll see
what you'll feel
once you get there.

You better
make the best of what you got
you don't know how much
you're left with
you'll never
know the feeling of love
His Holiness will occur
till you get there.

You better
make the best of what you got
you don't know how long
you're left with
And forever
you'll know the feeling of love
that His Holiness will occur
when you get there.

You better
make the best of what you got
as if its your last day on earth
you don't know how much time you're left with
and forever
I know the feeling of love
that His Holiness Has occurred
on me.

till you get there
when you get there
revel, in your amaryllis

so now you're there
and for now I'm here
revel, in your amaryllis

these are the questions

2008-12-13T21:07:00.001-05:00

Who are you?
What are you?
Are you a human?
you're some sort of
some kind of a
divine alien

sent from
above
another gift from God
to us

these are the questions
i wanted to ask you
we were supposed to have a one on one
interview...
about life,
I said we'll just
roll the cameras
and let the conversation flow
the moment was calling
we let it go.

why do you
always
want to help someone
don't you
want to
drive your fancy cars and have fun
you had some
but kept moving
a traveler.

So whats your
cause
your destiny
life is passing through
you and me
be careful of what you do
or say,

these are the questions
i wanted to ask you
we were supposed to have a one on one
interview...
about life,
I said we'll just
roll the cameras
and let the conversation flow
the moment was calling
we let it go.

for a while

2008-12-11T00:06:00.002-05:00

He'd never fill his stomach
just enough to not feel dizzy
bananas and some chocolates
eat them and get busy

We got lots of work to do
no time to get lazy
what is it that's inside of you
let it all out and share the light

I
have to put on
my
big big
smile
I've
got to move on
only here
for a while

in between
heaven and hell
How can I
save myself from myself
How can you
ask for no ones help
How can you
save yourself from yourself?

I
have to put on
my
big big
smile
I've
got to move on
only here
for a while,
got to get there

you
are so busy in your life
no time for sacrifices
need to make it somewhere

juggling multiple tasks
trying to get back to all that you can
pushing forward
moving on

in between
heaven and hell
How can I
save myself from myself?
How can you
ask for no ones help
How can you
save yourself from yourself?

in time

2008-12-02T23:09:00.003-05:00

Where did you transit to
tell me, where did you go?
I'm here looking out for you
right outside my door.

You said you'll stop by for dinner
be great to see the kids
you wanted to hang out together
make it better than it is

Now you are, wherever you may be
silently, you could be smiling back at me
but how will I ever know
what you're feeling right now
how would you ever know
what I'm feeling right now

So how does Gods kingdom look
does it have any snow?
I know you loved the sunshine too
and where the waters go

You said you'd give me a call
once you're through your swim
I just simply let you go
what more could I've done?
that's another question...

Now you are, wherever you may be
silently, you could be smiling back at me
Now you are, wherever you may be
probably, you could be smiling back at me
And I want to know somehow
what you're feeling right now

I want to know somehow
what you're feeling right now.
wont you like to know somehow
what I'm feeling right now?

But all that I could do
is to keep loving you.
all that we could do
is to keep loving you.

Where did you transit to
tell me, where did you go?
Mandy's looking out for you
right outside her door.

First day

2008-12-01T01:50:00.001-05:00

First day in the grave
hows it feeling
tell me the taste
was it reeling?
You said don't stand next to my grave
and don't cry
I wont be there
to reply

so does it hurt?
did it work?
was it worth it at all?
was it worth dying than to live and can you give me a call?
does it hurt?
did it work
was it worth it at all?
was it worth dying than living, can you give me a call?
your phones not ringing...

Another day in the grave
for the body
time will melt it away
now no ones there

the soul has parted
departed for another land
within these dimensions somewhere
part 2 of Gods plan

nothing is vanished, everything's here
transitng from one place to another, solitaire

But does it hurt?
did it work?
was it worth it at all?
was it worth dying than to live and can you give me a call?
does it hurt?
did it work
was it worth it at all?
was it worth dying than living, can you give me a call?
your phones not ringing...

No one is answering the phone
so have you finally reached home?
No one is answering the phone
have you finally reached home?

First day in space
whats your location?
Are you there?
reached His heaven?

I'm calling you i hope that you can hear
I pray to God to give mercy over fear

now I need to over come
what that I had become

now I need to over come
what that I'd become

what should I say to the kids

2008-11-30T23:12:00.000-05:00

And she came to me
a little girl
she was holding capitol hill
that her American uncle gave her
and then she asked me, daddy
where did Brent chachoo go?

what shall I tell her
What shall I tell her Brent?
Should I tell her the truth
God give me strength?
What should I tell her
What shall I tell her my friend
shall I read her your emails
us complementing the trend

So I said, sweet heart
God loved Brent chachoo so much
that now He wants to be
with him all the time.

And then she told her mother
Mommy remember what Uncle Brent gave me
this pop up capitol hill
maybe one day, she says,
I can be the president
or a congresswoman, or a teacher, a friend

But what shall I tell her
What shall I tell her Brent?
Should I tell her the truth
God give me strength?
what should I tell her
What shall I tell her my friend?
Should I tell her the truth
about the accident?

And then I said to her
yes I told her Brent
do good for others
God' will give you the strength

Your legacy, is your integrity
that's what you kept telling all the humanity
integrity of your work
integrity of your words

But what shall I tell her
What shall I tell her Brent?
Should I tell her the truth
God give me strength?
What should I tell her
What shall I tell her my friend
Should I tell her the truth
about the fatal accident
what shall I tell her
What shall I tell her Brent?
shall I read her your emails
us setting the trend

What should I tell the kids
What should I tell them, my friend?

does it really matter

2008-11-30T21:49:00.001-05:00

I should've reached out
that I did too
I should've shook you
I should've asked you to
open up your eyes

forget everything I said
and here's the bottom line

there will be no one like him
ever again
God stopped making them

lets all remember his smile
they, us, we, you
I loved him
and still do
God does too
thats why he took him so early

this is awesome my friend
reading your emails again,
i thought i would faint or throw up
or feel an intense pain,
but there's only this numbness.
i love your thoughts man, so clean, full of hope,
loving, caring, intense, blessed.

maybe i couldn't understand you,
most of our lives
we spend time lost in our own little hives
with pre-conceived stupid notions and misconceptions,
about eachother
stupid enough to judge others
on the basis of how we see...
when life is a 2 shot scene
life is a 2 shot scene
so obviously obscene.

And I am sorry if i caused you any pain,
for the time that i made you wait on me,
i know you waited, but i couldn't get back to you sooner, what a loser

So i raise my hands tonight and pray to God
that one day we will meet again,
and that day we will hug again, like we use to bud,
that tight warm candid hug of yours

you never hesitated,
even for a second
and that's how i remember you
and your Bulgarian dreams
sipping down the caspian sea

please forgive me, and ask God to forgive me too.
i don't know what to do,
what to say, in any way,
i wish i could see you or talk to you one last time,
but like you said in reply to "Bulgarian Dream" bro...

when you love someone,
there is no last time.

His plan is divine...

Maybe I couldn't understand you,
most of our lives
we spend time lost in our own little hives
with pre-conceived stupid notions and misconceptions,
about eachother
stupid enough to judge others
on the basis of how we see
when
life is a 2 shot scene.
life is a 2 shot scene.
so wickedly obscene
but
life is a 2 shot scene.

Any time

2008-11-30T20:08:00.001-05:00

Tick tack
tick tack
tick tack toe
any time can be
the time to go.

Tick tack
tick tack toe
you don't know when
you might go.

through the summers
fall or spring
I do think
what life can bring
and death is
not a mystery
your legacy is your history.

Tick tack
tick tack toe
any time its time to go.
what you're thinking
why so slow
get on the bus
lets rock and roll.

what you taught
got reinforced
we don't know
how fast it goes

make the best
of what you got
time, my friend
you don't have a lot

Tick tack
tick tack
tick tack toe
any time can be
the time to go.

Tick tack
tick tack toe
you don't know when
you might go.

Tick tack
tick tack toe
any time its time to go.
what you're thinking
why so slow
get on the bus
lets rock and roll.

Overload

2008-11-30T18:18:00.002-05:00

Why'd you had to ride that bike?
why'd you really have to put up a fight?
why didn't, you listened, to anyone
living life like a loaded gun...

And now you shimmer
in the light of this sunset
in the distance
is the spot where we once met
and where we're going, is a place that's already found us
so come on bud, i wont take the metro, or the bus.

Did i ever sound obnoxious or rude
but you knew that i loved you dude
like a brother, lost in the past
im coming at you like an express

and now you shimmer
basking in the light of this sunrise
I see no reason
still we got to end this life
and where we're going, is a place already found
maybe everything is happening in Gods consciousness.

people say that I should say it was destiny
I keep thinking
but that's the difference between destiny and God's will
destiny can be changed, through the will of God.

Because now
I'm sitting here calling out to you
you said you're reaching out but couldn't get through
and I hear, nothing
who am I kidding?
you're really gone
and left me with this killing
overload.

can you hear me or the ones you loved
the phones ringing no ones picking up
you lived your life even better than the kings
you're the light that happiness brings
shared your energy with every single one
no hesitations to help the children

and now you shimmer
basking in the light of this sunset
back in the distance
I see the spot where we once met
and where we're going, is a place that's already found you
so come on bud, lets hit the future,
not what it was...

I'm sitting here calling out to you
you said you're reaching out but couldn't get through
and I hear, nothing
who am I kidding?
you're really gone
moved it on
and left me with this
killing,
overload.

Brent will live

2008-11-30T18:09:00.002-05:00

This is the time
to test my spirit
or is it the time
for me to carry on?
I'm alive
just not breathing
spinning all around you
though for some I might be gone

I am like the river that flows through the mountains of beyond

I wont cry today
I'll give it
all my self control
Instead
I'll pray to God
to have mercy on your soul

I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your smile
I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your eyes
I'll remember, everything, about your life
No I wont cry

I can still see you
with that camera of yours
eager to get back
to start editing and opening doors
you gave it all to your work
even gave yourself for the common good

I wont cry today
I'll give it
all my self control
Instead
I'll pray to God tonight
to have mercy on your soul

I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your smile
I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your eyes
I'll remember, everything, about your life
No I wont cry tonight

I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
I'll remember, everything, about your life
You get the glory, man
I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your smile

The day he left he named it as his course
he lived and thrived like a powerful force
so close your eyes and see him
in between your memories
you'll hear the wind singing, something sweet through the trees

Brent will live in me
yes in you and me
some may not but some will see
Brent will live

I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your eyes
I'll remember, everything, about your life
You get the glory
I'll remember, all the good things, of your life
like your smiles
I cant believe I'm writing this
We'll remember, all the good things, of your life
I'll remember, everything, about your life
like your smile

Brent, you're gone
but these cars man, they keep moving on
or maybe, that's the sign

I wish you'd live a thousand lives
as I watch you go beyond that light.

Brent Hurd - 1970 - 2008
a friend a journalist and a great human being,
may God rest his soul in heaven.